one thousand
words daily
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| The kid inviting the rainbow. |
Day 20: teaching
tomorrow (The
Children)
cultivation station: remaining positive
Are there
sounds of happiness which reminds you of good times? What does Hope look like or sound like to
you?
Insomnia
is a friendemy of me, (both friend and enemy).
I get some awesome burst of God-given creativity, pain wakes me up or I
have to pee. Life can send you on paths
you in no way prepared for or paved yet, if you want to stick it out through
this crazy fun-filled dance we called “Existence,” remember this… that “Struggle
is never an option.” Some type of “Struggle,”
is eminent for us yet we can always decide how we view our surroundings, others
we encounter and situations we find ourselves in, yet to view it as a sad way
of life is not normal. Positivity is the
life-force which leads seeds into sprouting after a fresh rain. The same goes for the cultivation of our
minds and the minds of the youth.
As I
rise before the sun, a blizzard of thoughts blows me back into the past I knew,
the person I am now as well as what I know to be possible as well as
impossible. With E-40’s song “I’m Just Happy
to be Here,” in my brain blazing trails for a new day, I can’t help but be
thankful. We have multitudes of things
we can do to pass time, change things, and keep on living life as it is or be
rebellious and think outside the box of how you choose to define this life and
your existence. Although there are factors and things which
influence our days and take us to an avenue or situation that we can in no way
control, we must stay strong and hold firmly onto this life-saving force called
“Hope.” Being a parent definitely
influences my thoughts, as decisions I make are not merely for me but for those
I love.
This
daddy as well as relationship thing is serious, for no matter how I’m feeling,
I must remain positive as well as hopeful for those I want to see smile. I cannot let my downsides and bad days
influence others so it’s not that I’m ignoring all of the negative factors
which I face daily, it is that I am remaining to look at the brighter side of
things and be positive, you know, the “Glass half Full,” approach. Thanks to my genes, my kid loves music and plays
instruments, so into the playlist he goes, surprising me with which songs are
his favorites. From the sweet and
romantic “Heart and Soul,” song to Stevie Wonder’s “Isn’t She Lovely,” to Sir
Mix-a-Lot’s “Baby Got Back!” this kid definitely likes the classics. Now
I’m groovin to Digital Underground’s “Humpty Dance,” and glad that the boy likes a beat that I, his dad made on the computer with the demo program "FL Audio," aka "Fruityloops." Link below!
https://soundcloud.com/ku-the-conduit/sets/beats-to-grind-to
https://soundcloud.com/ku-the-conduit/sets/beats-to-grind-to
All of
these cool things I see in him as well as his song choices makes me smile as I
know that I have not lead my multi-talented son wrong. I remember when I met Shock G.. He was in the stands when my folks Bill aka
“Flo Stone,” was putting together his album with Young Fool R.I.P., J-River and
some more and was asked if I wanted to
contribute and be on the record label, who at that time was owned by an acquaintance who now owns the cannabis distribution company 1212 Distribution. One thing we must all do in life is gage what
we deem is this goal we hear of called “Success.” I write about this subject a lot in many
different ways for one strict reason.
That reason is that throughout our lives, and especially in our young
lives, we are force-fed messages by our societies as well as those close to us of what success is, what it means and how to achieve it.
we must
do more…
Sometimes
we go beyond expectations of others and sometimes we do not. Because of the weight of choice, free will
and the small increment of time we are given to live this short span of breathing
called existence, I know that everything we decide to do and every path we
take, whether self-chosen or chosen for us, is time sensitive and must be done
with care and wisdom. No one goes to a
job fair seeing Ron Jeremy at a booth, Elon Musk, or the top traders of stocks
from the New York Stock Exchange at a booth now do you? We don’t see a gentleman from some insane
organized crime child trafficking ring with a booth or a counselor from a drug
rehab place there telling you how wonderful the job is. There are so many
determining factors which hold influence upon our financial as well as social
growth, whether we notice it or not.
clear from
the git!
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| The kid leaning and mastering windsurfing at Sherman Island. |
What we
all experience from childhood to an adult determines how we are to exist in the
future days ahead as well as what happens to those we take care of. We can point the finger and play the blame
game or we can stop now with these thoughts after reading this and do something
about it! Some might say that because of the lack of education (the sad state
of our public schools), lack of financial as well as lack thereof cultural or
social insight (from the institutions serving us) and lack of wisdom
demonstrated, is indeed why our students
do not have a good educational standing fresh out of high school. Some might look at the environment around us
as well as the often strange political nature, social nature of our society and
the media (which is supposed to be held responsible to cover current events
about our political climate as well as the natural environment in an honest way
in order for us help plan our lives) as the problem. We cannot let the hopelessness, lack of
creativity and narrow resolve of those in power to tell us what to do in times
of crisis.
The
situation is dire that we ourselves must provide clear definitions of what success
means to us and how to attain it. We must be the news broadcasts for our kids
and we must have the courage to strike up conversations about morality to see
where their heads are and what exactly they are soaking up without us there. This
also means providing alternate educations to our children other than the usual
school day has in the classrooms, for we are their most influential teachers;
their first teachers! How do we do
this? One way is by creating an atmosphere
of understanding, love as well as having open communication with honest rules
and expectations, (for ourselves, those we love and for our children) we can
begin to provide a positive place for growth no matter what weather might
come.
the seriousness
of trust
As our
children become mirror images of the teenagers we once were, we see ourselves
sometimes developing different strategies to reach them. As the natural family issues arise from drug
abuse to a death in the family, the seeds of hope and understanding we have
purposely planted will not “Protect,” our children from harm but will indeed
season them for the dynamic individuals which they will grow healthily into,
proving to all of us who exactly they are!
I know that I am not a perfect father yet also know that my son knows
where the love and truth flows from and most of all, I know that he trusts
me. The trust from a child to a parent
is as important as knowing how to drive properly or how to wipe your own ass. Trust is essential in receiving information
and computing what we have heard for our own judgment and formulation of
opinions.
I think
I’ll leave y’all with a poem now. I can
write about all of these morality things until my carpel tunnel acts up and I
know that I need to write another blog on, the Comfort of Trust. All of this here is way over one thousand
words! Enjoy!
Folks I know, know the perfect way to put the devil in a
choke hold
One part Love with two parts an abundance of Understanding
and Truth
Where I’m from, there is no book box which might have “How
to be the Best Dad,”
You will find no “Rich Dad Poor Dad,” on the streets or
“Tools Used to Build a Brighter Future,” only discarded
needles, sutures and broken glass
Any parent raising children in a suburban warzone can feel
this
Perhaps we all do when folks prove well how they’ve got
screws loose
Even this poem is too mashed up in truths and places which
might show where those fallen stocks go
While hope flows still like the invisible Amazon River I
heard about in the stratosphere
Wasting nothing, no seconds, no second servings or solutions
to have to deal with
We strengthen our bases, stare straight into greedy faces
and academic hopefuls while Raising Realness
As questions surmount to displace even some of the new
truths which we have also found
We must talk more, hug more, brain-storm more until we all
get brain-farts to the core
Building foundations which might not survive like the many
species currently going extinct
On a rapid level we must build a new network of hopeful
thinking every second of every blink
Wondering how we are to raise them without the treasures
which we once had
No longer there these morals and gifts, must we seek new
ways to reach and teach as well as fight back
For the waters are rising quicker than they can build the levees
and
Much too fast than the best crafting plastic machine can
print body bags
Time is upon us to be thankful as well as knowledgeable of
its passing as time goes
When there is no land present, only hopes in heaven when
flames are on shore, we must stroke!
Teaching youth ways of resilience, love, tolerance and engines
of ingenuity
Preparing them for worlds we might never live to set foot
upon or see
Knowing that some of us too require to be re-taught what
might have been long forgotten
When skies grow rotten as well as the fruit
While thousands grow hungry from un-reaped harvests which we
failed to properly distribute
Asking for more from us, from their silence alone, we must
in turn be more for everyone
Hoping for love when our child first looked upon us, know
that we are their first Sun
Bringing the miracle of warmth in a world getting warmer
with climate yet colder in hearts
At home it begins for some while in the streets for others
it unfortunately starts
Raising Realness & Hope
1-31-2019
