Some roads, we know exactly how we've ended up there. Often times we are called to make dramatic leaps of faith, sometimes without knowing how strong of a foothold we'll end up on or without knowing how much ground we might gain.
We often pull from whatever experiences or teachings that best suit us when making decisions that can affect our future yet whatever wisdom we have gained is put quickly into action as the tasks of living demand.
Well me, for I can say my reason is right in season and nothing far from divine. Taking action, I chose to see it not as a task, but as an adventurous journey, like yearning for learning... how to walk, eat, whistle, and then perhaps the ability to jump and run for a second time. When given a second chance, sometimes we're very much caught up in the funk of the moment, too stressed to see the offered solutions or that someone on your behalf have already paid restitution... for success I have found is the best retribution! And love the most available and effective remedy. How will you rise?
As I take my son to the movies and facetimed with him I see the innocence we miss. I see the simplicity as his smile stretches Infinity and mine hangs short with a realistic look into the camera of "You better make this work, for him or else!" Sometimes we can be our best friend however often we become our worst critic and worst enemy.
My determination I find is not only fueled by the smiles I have seen but for all of the promises and smiles yet to be seen. For all of the awesome experiences he will choose to remember as I as a boy have many I chose to forget. Determination for me covers so many things, as I'm determined to put this book into many languages, as it took bravery and determination just to get it done, as I am determined to have at least one full night of sleep with little pain and make my woman smile forever and never weep. It is difficult to remain determined with hard factors against you but you must! What are you determined to do? What fuels you? I will dance again someday when my legs are able, I will hike mountains with my loved ones, no... I will move them! I've left a poem below for review, it's been awhile.
What indoctrinations or statements
Could transform me into a monster?
Mindless sentinels conduct tasks
Much too dirty to do alone
Perhaps too greedy to lend a hand or ask
As questions we ponder without action
Asked if we'll jump at the gun
When evil is conjured we evade
Like a high-speed chase of the soul
Not knowing that by not standing...
We are leaving room for bad contingency
For the enemy to grab ahold
Much like a child breathing harsh existence
With no love, arms or love visible to console
So damnit I've managed to give to live
So I what I've got
To be there through the storms
Although the ground often feels shaky and Walls, they fall down and rot
As I find that the position I'm placed in
Is nothing short of amazing
While I incorporate everything I love
Crafting it magically for the love of others
Once pacing with worry and heartache
Now evil runs to escape & the fake stutter
Using the fuel of what remains in dreams
Going hard never soft yet forever I'm gentle
Praising the Creator for gifts given
Reminding that love is alive and has risen
Never again masking myself for
The ill-prepared and takers of truth
Passing on wisdom with purpose
Without concern yet accountability as it hits them
Building an ever-deep foundation for us to learn to dwell inside and live in
Those once controlling will hope I have forgiven them
As we begin with the task once thought simple
The priceless cost of a smile and
The empathy to understand another soul
Passion Detrimental
