one thousand
words daily
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| One day I had to force myself to take a walk for clarity and came upon this olive tree in a front yard.
"Perpetual peace is indicated by an olive branch which the dove brought with it when it returned to the ark."
~ St. Augustine
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Day 14:
focus, clarity and the realizations
that stuff brings
I
believe in many things. One belief is that all of us would like to live to our
full capacity when it concerns doing what we to have a little more after we
make ends meet, do what we need to accomplish for self-satisfaction as well as to
do what we are meant to in our lifetimes.
I like to think that I am a sort of reminder of sorts, one who guides
others towards their potential, kind of like a life coach, except without
getting directly paid in cash for it. I
would love to get paid for it but that is now what I have been doing. Holistically as well as spiritually I see myself
as a conduit, an avenue for the growth of others, one who directs, counsels and
leads others towards success. Recently I
have found that I am not “reminder,” as I need to be. In fact I have found that it is I that has
needed the reminding. I need reminders
for how to take better care of my physical, mental as well as spiritual
self.
To
be one who is supposed to be carrying the water for the next in terms of
nourishment or leading one to it, and being a path/conduit to aid in that flow
of richness, to find myself needing the reminding has been a real trip. Being humbled in a good way is a constant
thing if we are open to the challenge of learning, however to slip and get
humbled due to unfortunate circumstances, please believe, has its share of
surprises. Fortunately it has been more
positive experiences than negative that continue to ground me. Well, I can look at any of the instances in a
negative light however it is undeniable how things happen as well as how things
get worked out. One thing for sure is
that entering each circumstance and challenge through eyes of faith has
determined the outcome.
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| In the er again, but they said "it's all good, don't trip, here are some pills..." lol |
taking that cautious step back
Upon
helping others with their health needs, I am reminded of how I need to focus on
myself in a more serious light and take a stance when it comes to “Exactly what
it is I ought to do.” Trying to inspire
the creative side of others as well as in listening better to what others I
have discovered, I have recently opened up a new found fire for writing as well
as with art. In taking care of others I
have found how I need to be in the healthiest of conditions in order to be
there physically (and not die or something) for those I love that rely on me
from my fiancé to my children. Some work
so hard in order to provide for the ones they love, killing themselves slowly. Their
mental mind state is on edge, blood pressure rises, the body slowly takes a
toll and health begins to deteriorate and they become, naturally, by a cold
society, bled completely dry and used up to useless for the ones they love.
This
type of drive can be good if focused as well as fed positively yet sometimes this
can result in a loved one growing unattached as in divorcing or even sometimes
can result to stress-induced early deaths. I refuse to “go out like that,” and I suggest
that everyone find a path that serves as both productive as well as healthy for
all affected. Re-evaluating often needs
to happen, reality checks, checking oneself or perhaps simply listening closer
to the wisdom from those who care about us. By doing this, focus is regained
and perspective is broadened, eyes opened to newer possibilities and/or chances
for growth sprout like seedlings awaiting those first drops of fall rain. To share my personal experience, I find I
need to fight for my health and life when it comes to being served in a timely
manner by medical professionals, as I have discovered not everyone is as professional
as I am or have been in the realm of helping others. I have had to be more than
proactive and concerned by demanding what I deserve on all life fronts!
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| Who is this funny lookin dude? |
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| Son and Pops, the teacher swimming together. |
cultivation station… (across the
nation n stuff)
As
I have mentioned above, cultivation is something which we should consider when
it comes to wholesome lifestyle as well as personal wellness. For myself I have
put some water and fertilizer on some talents that I have not forgotten about
but have put on the backburner, or for farming and gardening sake, in the
compost bin but have forgotten to turn it or add it to the soil already
existing. Realizations occur, such as I
have had to admit that in the past I have been too nice, to the wrong
kind. I have also failed to surround myself
with the right kind and as a head of a family; this can be a serious issue to
those that depend on us. So as I type
this beating out “The Jacka,” my flow is relaxed and I find the proper words to
give you the real.
In
prayer and meditation I have been able to focus on the talents and loved ones
that need that “watering.” Sometimes when there are clouds ahead that refuse to
produce we need to find a good, viable water source and can no longer wait for rain. I have re-discovered my artistic abilities in
drawing, beat making, rapping, writing songs and it’s on. On top of that I have been waking up from
dreams, writing down the ideas as well as have had melodies from dreams on my
mind as I wake. When your subconscious
speaks to you and especially when your higher source, whether it be your scientific
analysis or for me, God, “you better listen, speak up and answer,” shoooot!
picture uncertain to picture perfect
enough for… the right stuff
If we
fail to get the memo, the very things we forget will grow like weeds, strange
diseases with no seeming cure like an unexpected deadly cancer. Sometimes separation from the situation and looking
at “what exactly it is…” from different eyes can gift you a growing surprise. Some things we have to let go while others
require more focus… and it’s just like that, deductive reasoning with guidance
and faith and proper pampering, treating, and action while believing it can be
accomplished at its best. How you choose to cultivate depends on you if you
need to do any at all. All I can do now
is show you to the water. Whether you
drink the reverse osmosis for your psychosis and obtain nourishment and positivity
from it is up to you. Below is a poem for your enjoyment and review.
Lost souls and waiting ones, spirits that do not yet
know the warmth of bright light
Watch us folly and fail time and time again slapping
their foreheads in agony and irritation
As we think we are forgotten as others no longer
here we can in no way evade from our thoughts
For some, what is not seen is better than the
reality they hope to never encounter but
How can we begin to discover what needs attention
when we have not lost enough to learn
We cannot begin to neglect the very soil under our
feet any longer nor
Can we fail to acknowledge the weeping skies above
our lowered heads?
While there lies a balance between ignorance, knowledge,
wisdom and what to discern
To acquire not just the nourishment needed for all
but
To ignite the passions and gladness that overcomes
the sadness and pain that burns when
All we need to do is find the proper water that helps
our blood flow ripe through veins
Encountering gold in the streams while feeding the
child within that remains
Discovering talents, resolutions and cultivating all
which helps us break the mold
Walking along streams with those we care for finding
other footsteps in mud and
At the same time floating petals, fresh water for
burning kettles and gold for…
Only we can define and appraise what is precious for
the heart as well as soul
Perfect Appraisal
10-2-2018
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